Sooooo tired.... Just got home.. YEAH at last!!! went out wif my bro.. its been awhile since we went out.. hes busy with NS n all.. but finally just now he had free time to spare for me.. yeah.. firstly we went to BUGIS.. wah its been a long time since i went there.. but still no change.. its the same old thing.. Bugis Village and Bugis Junction... wanted to buy the VON DUTCH pants at BV but decided not to.. the pants are so stylo.. i must get em'!!!!!!.. maybe next week.. but i bought 3 Tees there.. wanted to get more, but decided to buy it when i go to BV again to buy the pants.. my bro didnt buy anything.. he said no money.. LIAR!!! lol.. then we went to BJ.. just walk around.. i just realise that BJ quite suck la.. lol.. the place so boring.. damn.. next we went to Cathay CINE to buy the movie tickets first.. we decided to watch the 9+ show for CELLULAR... its damn good!!!! the most interesting show i've ever watch.. the plot is damn unique.. i recommend u all to watch it.. the show gets 9/10 from me.. after buying the tickets, we went Far East Plaza to break our fast.. haha by the time we reached there it was ard 8pm already.. we fast for an extra hour.. but its a good thing.. there wasn't much crowd when we reached there.. i treated my bro to dinner.. haha forget the name of the place again.. but who cares.. the food was great as usual.. after that we made our way back to CINE for the movie.. the show ended around 11+.. we took 106 back home.. yeah and now i'm here!!! using the com.. haha.. had such a great time today.. expected it.. coz its my bro man.. never failed to haf fun whenever i'm with him..k guys.. thats all for now.. takecare..
My Bro
Sunday, October 31, 2004 @ 10/31/2004 01:24:00 AM
Time to party
Friday, October 29, 2004 @ 10/29/2004 09:06:00 PM
Sory ya'all.. had been busy with exams and all that i had no time to blog for two weeks.. but now i'm back.. enjoying life.. coz Examz over!!!!! and i wouldnt wanna talk about it anymore till i get my results coz it will only make me worry.. haha you guys know what i mean.. and anyway whats over is over.. no use comtemplating about it.. k enough of exams.. I had a great time after it!!!!! Went for the SBM Leadership Training Camp on 25th, 26th and 27th which was on monday, Tuesday and wednesday respectively.. The camp was quite sucky most of the time, but thanx to the pips' in the camp, it wasnt that bad.. i made alot of new frens!!! and i mean alot.. especially the pips' in the Sports and Wellness class.. haha since i got nothing to do now, let me list some of em.. Imran, Firhan, Urzair, YJ, Rashidin, Terry, Hafid (my cousin.. haha..), Kamarul, Nisa (such a funny girl.. and cool too..), Mardhia, Aisyah, YY, Rena, Qiu Yu, Cinderine, Khor Kai, Min Yi, Suban!!! (i LOVE this guy), Sherry, Gilbert, Wada, Jackson!!! (Funny fellow) and the list just goes on and on.. i wanna thank Dilys!!!! for inviting me to the camp.. if it wasnt for her, i wouldnt get to know those cool pips'.. (So Dilys, stop saying sorry!!! coz i know the camp suck but the people were great.. so it wasnt that bad.. had a fun time.. lol.. thanx again!!) Thanx to Angeline too for makin the camp a fun one and, our friendship just gets better and better.. BUDDY FOR LIFE!!! and Joan too.. lol.. thanx for being there.. had a great time joking with her.. and please!!! stop abusing me.. lol you're my phobia now.. as for the events during the camp, i'll summarise it another day.. lol feeling tired to brainstorm now.. so thats all for now.. i'll be back for more blogging.. lol.. its the holiday now!!! must enjoy before it ends.. i'm feeling so free and hyper.. and the feeling is great!!! Can concentrate on music and etc.. ITS TIME TO PARTY!!!!!!!!
Welcome to my life
Saturday, October 16, 2004 @ 10/16/2004 01:50:00 AM
Ouch!! made lots of mistake in the statistic semestrial exam paper just now.. thought i did right.. then go home i check alot of careless.. never read questions properly.. die.. failure is inevitable.. wah this sucks!! but nvm.. Joan just made my day.. lol.. i tot supplementary paper if pass will mix wif the icas all and i will still fail coz i did very badly.. i mean very!! lol.. but she say if supplementary pass is enough.. wont combine.. wah good!! meaning i no need worry about the paper just now.. if fail, i take supplementary paper, then pass is enough.. shen!!! yeah tanx Joan!!! lol.. but i regretted not studying for ICAs and didnt start early on the Exam.. wasted time on pointless stuffs.. nvm.. just have to start from scratch.. new resolutions in life- Enjoy life and Chill always (dont stress on meaningless things.. concentrate on studies and my own interests.. as they say, theres a time to study and theres a time to play..) and to live life as it is (everything is predestined.. so i cant change fate.. rather than wasting time in pointless actions, i'll let fate control everything in life including love.. as they say, if its meant to be yours, fate will bring it to you somehow..). Yeah!! I felt so carefree and delighted since i made those resolutions.. nomore worries.. no!!! gotta worry for now.. exams!!! k gotta go back to my revisions.. have to strive hard now.. anyway the exams is ending in a few days time.. suffer now rather then worry later.. good luck ya'all!!! seeya...
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong,
and noone understands you..
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
that noone hears you screaming..
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over..
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their fake big smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding..
No!! you dont know what its like
when nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like
To be like me!!
Noone ever lied straight to your face!!
Noone ever stabbed you in the back!!
You might think i'm happy but i'm not gonna be okay..
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work, it was always there
You dont know what its like to be like me....
To be hurt!
To feel lost!
To be left out in the dark!
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No!! you dont know what its like....
WELCOME TO MY LIFE!!!
LosT
Thursday, October 07, 2004 @ 10/07/2004 03:51:00 AM
Yeah.. the day has come.. shes gone.. gone away with all the dear ----'sons' in her life.. like the wind, she came and left.. and i'm here.. all alone.. torn apart.. broken.. i did saw it coming but i dont know why i still let her in.. shes so predictable.. i guess my friends are right.. shes out of my league.. but stubborn me.. now suffering the consequences.. should had left while i could.. but i stayed on upon hearing her empty words and fake hopes which seems so real.. i guess i am gullible.. but i should have seen thru it.. coz the contradictions were clear.. the messages she sent were so sweet, seems so true.. noone would think otherwise being given those messages.. but in reality i guess they didnt hold any meaning.. coz she treats me like i'm invisible.. like an outcast.. i was insecure all along.. should have trust my instincts.. wat am i to her..? someone who she can message frequently for her own fun and pleasure..? To increase her hp bill coz she got to much wealth to spare..? .. i'll never know the answer.. if only the answer is clear.. if only the answer is an answer which goes my way.. if only... the fact was actually clear.. i should haf took time to look at it.. everyday without fail, she would smile.. not coz of me.. but coz of talking and msging on her phone with whoever.. i dont wish to know.. she would be grinning away after school to go out with whoever.. i dont wish to know.. she would be excited with the gifts given to her by whoever.. i dont wish to know.. but its ok.. as long as shes happy with whoever.. i dont wish to know.. at least the whoever can make her happy by doing all those things.. i cant afford to take her out and shower her with gifts.. so i shouldnt be complaining.. i only wish whatever i just said is all just an illusion.. but i guess now even a falling star cant save me.. but even though misery arises from all this, i will never regret falling deep for her.. Thru my eyes, shes Everything.. and that summarise it all.. coz to all of you out there, she may just be a normal gal.. So, its for me to know and for noone to find out why shes my everything.. The feelings will never die and will always be burning brightly in my heart.. always.. i'll be there if ever she needs me.. i'll do anything for her.. i'll be her invisible guardian.. Forever.. wish her happiness always in her life.. as for me, i'll just leave my life to fate from now on.. coz i'm LOST..
( Everyday i wish you were here with me.. it hurts that you cant be.. if i could turn back the hands of time, i would have just keep tis love invisible like what i am to you.. Everyday i wish i could have known you better.. so i cherish the times we had together.. instead of thinking you been gone.. while i'm here all alone.. Everyday i wish i could call you.. so that i have someone to talk to.. but someone took you away from me.. and all i could say is.. "Rest in peace"..
( Lying here all on my own.. watching life go by.. taking in those dreadful words.. a tear drops from my eye.. i stood around watching you fly away.. and waited for the pain.. love can be a painful thing.. you used my love in vain.. why u leave me here to cry..? why did u came by just to break my heart and fly off..? I wish you didnt leave me here to fall apart and watch u fade away.. if only i know how u felt and why u just wont stay.. i never thought that i would cry so much.. i want to see this through.. although you'll never feel for me.. i'll always love you)
(And finally the silence.. Looking out, looking back across the sky.. trying to find a meaning.. knowing that i just left it all behind.. still i smell a lingering softness..... Thinking back before you.. i never knew the meaning of alone.. still the flag is feeling foreign.. i live the day to escape into a phone.. speaking of a world not real then.. where did you go.. how did you go.. i wanna wanna know.. i wanna know that you'll be coming here to me.. come on!!! without you i'll never feel the love inside of me.. come on!!! you know that we belong.. i'm living for you.. breathing for you.. singing for your fairytale...)
WeLcome My Immortals
Sunday, October 03, 2004 @ 10/03/2004 06:38:00 PM
Welcome ya'all to my new blog...
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Coz your presence still lingers here
And it wont leave me alone
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
Theres just too much that time cannot erase
When you cry i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all these times
But you still have me
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
