Finally, back to the place where I can rant all my thoughts out. Apart from the few beloved people whom I can share my hearts out without caring any less (For eg. Zoom and Kevin), I believe I can make do with this channel to voice my thoughts as well.

April 2010! Exams next month. Mugging at a damn slow pace. Increasing the intensity by TOMORROW. I hope. So, for those who care, do understand if I can't meet up. When I REALLY do have that tiny bit of spare time, then I'll hope that you're free as well.

It really bugs me when people can't relate to my work shift. If you've not gone through the cycle, shut it. It's not that simple as you assume. or should I say judge. Stop the Ya-kadee-yak. There's really minimal time and my life doesn't revolve around anyone. For now. Period.

Being single has been slightly disturbing somehow. Yes yes, the freedom and etc etc. However, it's still the lack of having someone, who will really listen to the words that I speak. Close ones knows that I rarely or perhaps never speak much of my mind. Simple reason being, even if I do, I doubt the other party really open their mind and relate to whatever that is happening in my life. Unless keeping all to myself will drive me mad, I rather keep it low. I can tell when someone is putting on a deaf ear and hearing for courtesy sake. That's when I'll draw the line and I won't speak a word on my thoughts nomore. Like my Old buddy Kelvin used to say,'You've missed the damn bus'. Now, I'm sure that explains why I dont speak. Gwen Stefani might agree to that.

I do miss my past one. The sincerity and understanding through the little things she used to do. Hmm shall'nt speak much of it here.
Recently, been dating this lady. She's fine in her own ways. However clearly right now, I'm not looking for a companion. Any tom, dick or HERRY(hur) can be my companion. I need a partner, one who listens. The pillar of support; which is the base of any r/s, apart from trust. That's all. Ohh trust me, I do know when one is basically hearing, and not listening. *Did I mention that it kills knowing how the other feels, and we're pretending as though all is good*

Such hassle the facade I have to mask on everyday. Ahh everyone does. It's not a choice. Somehow or rather, we'll act in a way that we're somehow program to, or simply the realistic way how ppl expect you to react. There's bound to be someone (perhaps past, present or soon enough) that you wish you could simply whoop his ass. Then what's stopping you? We're all design somehow to do act rationally. Disagreeing with me? Cut the crapp. We're all humans. I really do agree when they say our life is like a stage. Play it well. OOoo let's all play it really well. Everyone's watching.