Yeah.. the day has come.. shes gone.. gone away with all the dear ----'sons' in her life.. like the wind, she came and left.. and i'm here.. all alone.. torn apart.. broken.. i did saw it coming but i dont know why i still let her in.. shes so predictable.. i guess my friends are right.. shes out of my league.. but stubborn me.. now suffering the consequences.. should had left while i could.. but i stayed on upon hearing her empty words and fake hopes which seems so real.. i guess i am gullible.. but i should have seen thru it.. coz the contradictions were clear.. the messages she sent were so sweet, seems so true.. noone would think otherwise being given those messages.. but in reality i guess they didnt hold any meaning.. coz she treats me like i'm invisible.. like an outcast.. i was insecure all along.. should have trust my instincts.. wat am i to her..? someone who she can message frequently for her own fun and pleasure..? To increase her hp bill coz she got to much wealth to spare..? .. i'll never know the answer.. if only the answer is clear.. if only the answer is an answer which goes my way.. if only... the fact was actually clear.. i should haf took time to look at it.. everyday without fail, she would smile.. not coz of me.. but coz of talking and msging on her phone with whoever.. i dont wish to know.. she would be grinning away after school to go out with whoever.. i dont wish to know.. she would be excited with the gifts given to her by whoever.. i dont wish to know.. but its ok.. as long as shes happy with whoever.. i dont wish to know.. at least the whoever can make her happy by doing all those things.. i cant afford to take her out and shower her with gifts.. so i shouldnt be complaining.. i only wish whatever i just said is all just an illusion.. but i guess now even a falling star cant save me.. but even though misery arises from all this, i will never regret falling deep for her.. Thru my eyes, shes Everything.. and that summarise it all.. coz to all of you out there, she may just be a normal gal.. So, its for me to know and for noone to find out why shes my everything.. The feelings will never die and will always be burning brightly in my heart.. always.. i'll be there if ever she needs me.. i'll do anything for her.. i'll be her invisible guardian.. Forever.. wish her happiness always in her life.. as for me, i'll just leave my life to fate from now on.. coz i'm LOST.. ( Everyday i wish you were here with me.. it hurts that you cant be.. if i could turn back the hands of time, i would have just keep tis love invisible like what i am to you.. Everyday i wish i could have known you better.. so i cherish the times we had together.. instead of thinking you been gone.. while i'm here all alone.. Everyday i wish i could call you.. so that i have someone to talk to.. but someone took you away from me.. and all i could say is.. "Rest in peace"..
( Lying here all on my own.. watching life go by.. taking in those dreadful words.. a tear drops from my eye.. i stood around watching you fly away.. and waited for the pain.. love can be a painful thing.. you used my love in vain.. why u leave me here to cry..? why did u came by just to break my heart and fly off..? I wish you didnt leave me here to fall apart and watch u fade away.. if only i know how u felt and why u just wont stay.. i never thought that i would cry so much.. i want to see this through.. although you'll never feel for me.. i'll always love you)
(And finally the silence.. Looking out, looking back across the sky.. trying to find a meaning.. knowing that i just left it all behind.. still i smell a lingering softness..... Thinking back before you.. i never knew the meaning of alone.. still the flag is feeling foreign.. i live the day to escape into a phone.. speaking of a world not real then.. where did you go.. how did you go.. i wanna wanna know.. i wanna know that you'll be coming here to me.. come on!!! without you i'll never feel the love inside of me.. come on!!! you know that we belong.. i'm living for you.. breathing for you.. singing for your fairytale...)
