I'm damn pissed. drained . I feel like doing a thousand kicks on that punching bag. I've decided to stand my ground from now on and have my damn space since its seemingly impossible to gain understanding from anyone, even from your love ones.
Isn't it common sense that you need to recuperate after more than 20hrs of staying awake. For eg, you worked morning shift and definately you need to sleep once home. The following day, wakes up at noon and stay up for night shift all e way till the following day when you get home in the late morning. It is an off day but We need that sufficient sleep. It's a mutual understanding. If the other really cares, shouldn't they try to adapt to that working schedule and when the rest is needed. It's my fcucking flaw that I just cant reject on the face to anyone who ask me out. This eventually leads to unpleasant unforseen consequences.

& I've resolute to go the extra mile only for those who is worth that effort. Thinking back, the things I did seems meaningless when noone really cares to appreciate it. I would drive for others convenience sake till late, and sometimes I have to drive back by myself to handover to my Ex. On certain occasions, I would even sleep in the car while awaiting the first train. Noone knows cause noone bothers. The list goes on but I don't see the need to enlighten those that doesnt do their own self reflection. And I dont get ppl who expect you to put in effort when I don't see the other going any extra mile.

I'm not saying I'm right nor how things should work out. However, life would be much better if everyone takes times to open their mind and understanding others instead of letting emotions take control. Noone is ever right in terms of opinions.
No wonder its said that 'Love yourself before you love others'. Cause noone really knows how to love you other than yourself.